Thursday, September 30, 2004

A quote that I found and I extremely like it

"To be nobody but yourself, in a world which is doing its best, day and night, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle, which any human being can fight and never stop fighting."

Today sucked what else can I say??! McQuaid Invitational on Saturday. Aiming for top 30 only god will know if i actually get top 10 b/c then i'll get a medal. or even a t-shirt would be cool b/c duh it would say mcquaid on it!

-me the girl who is hoping the run really good-

Monday, September 27, 2004

Dude I'm so bored

O.K. I just talked to this one person and she got me thinking. Are me and Neil actually 'together'. I mean It's like yes we are but then like:
1. I haven't seen him in 3 months.
2. I rearly talk to him on the phone/computer.

So yeah, I mean I extremely like him as everyone knows, but then like it's hard not to like other guy's when I never see Neil. I can't like look forward to see him at school or at Cross-Country practice b/c he's not going to be there! He goes to freaking McQuaid so that explain's itself right there. But I mean I might see him on Halloween, don't really think he's gonna come so not keeping my hopes up to high.

I'm tired, I'm going to bed. Out.

-me the girl who can't stop thinking of someone who should be in my past-

Saturday, September 25, 2004

The Big Invitational

Woke up at 6. That totally sucked ass man having to get up that early. Drove to Roth and got on bus. Drove to Auburn which is like 1 hour and 20 minutes away. The ride was soo boring and just like slepted the whole time. Got to the Auburn Middle School (the school is soo freaking big) Well we 'warmed up' and sort of ran around a big. When the race started for the girls it turned out to be a Modified A race (7th, 8th, and 9th graders) so there was people with a lot more expierence then me. The race was brutal with people kicking and shoving and I bet I'll have bruises on my ribs. I came in 65th place (which for me is a total let down) and there was about 200 girls in the race. My time was 11:26 which was 26 seconds slower then the race at Webster. Beccca did good.

-me the girl who can't run- (Please Comment!!!)

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

I'm so nervous!!

Tomorow is the first Cross Country meet. I'm soo nervous because I want to do extremely well to prove to everyone else that I can do good. I'm going to try to keep the mile under 7 minutes so maybe like 6:50 maybe..?? I really don't know yet.

I got an email from Neil today. Well actually 2 of them. I'm so confused right now. I just learned that I made a big mistake and that his dance is not on Halloween. So right now he is thinking about it and no one has the faintest idea of how badly I want to have Neil come!
I better go!

-me and only me-

Monday, September 20, 2004

I have to stay focused!

I'm worried about Cross Country. I want to be, no I have to be first girl on the team. I've worked so hard lately and pushed myself so hard to lose my spot to Heather, Meghan O, Lauren, or above all Carely DeFranco. The first meet is on Thursday at Webster Park, I'm hopeing I do extremely well.

O.K. Today at school it extremely sucked. Joey say's he wont go to the party because he wants to be immature and go trick-or-treating with Regina and his stupid family. Joey, like Becca said, go fuck a tree. I'm really extremely sick of the way you act and treat my like I have no feelings. I haven't liked you for an extremely long time so don't think you have the advantage over me any more. I'm not going to put up with this bull any more.

I really hope Eric will come. Joey told Eric not to come because he know's Eric will have a good time. But I have a strong hope Eric will come. *Knock on wood*

And today was weird, Eric came up to me and was like,

Eric-"What is this Neil's guys last name?"
Me-"Why do you care/want to know?"
Eric-"We were just talking about Neil (Eric and the guy's at his table, Joey, Eric S., Eric M, Andrew, Jay.) and was wondering what his last name was."
Me- "Seriously Eric, why do you care?"
Eric-"Is his last name McCarthy or McCarhter or something like that?"

Eric-"So is one of those his last name"
Meggie-(I can't believe I said this but...) No Eric, Neil's last name is not McCarthy or the other one, it start's with a R. (I have no idea why I lied.)

Then Eric walked away. So like I was freaking out because I have no idea how the hell Eric know's about Neil (I never told him) or even know's his last name!! So again I cornered Eric when he was throwing his lunch away...

Me- "How do you or why do you care about what Neil's last name is??"
Eric- "Well, because I knew I Neil McCarthy when I went to Webster."

OH SHIT!!! HE KNOW'S NEIL!!!! OH MY GOD!! Why the good this is that now Neil know's someone if he comes over.

O.K. A really bad thing to say right now but this is my journal so I can care less what other people think.
Today is Home and Careers Chris Fanelli was talking to me a lot. I was so extremely happy that he was but I mean he was acting weird and stuff so It was funny for me. Behind us were the pictures from out stupid project and I saw a picture of Joey Ciminelli. I was like:
Me: "OMG It's Joey!"
Chris: 'HAHA Yeah, you and Joey are going out right?"
Me: "NO!! Me and him are just really good friends!"
20 minutes later
Chris: "Are you sure you and Joey aren't going out..?"
Me: "NO CHRIS!! He's like a brother to me!"

So yeah...I still have that crush on Chris F. but I mean I can't like him because of Neil. Wait no...I care to much for Neil to be running around likeing every guy in site.

-me and only me-

Sunday, September 19, 2004

This is a starter

This is going to be my journal for the year. You can read it if you want to but I'm not going to say that my life is interesting. If you don't know, my name is Margaret Crandall, but everyone calls me Meghan. I'm 14 years old and I was born on June 5th. My Mom almost died while have me and really it was a 50/50 chance on who would live, we were both extremely lucky. I have brown curly hair but I straighten it so it looks simi good. It's just past my shoulders. I have blue eyes which change color a lot and I wear glasses. When I get into high school I'm getting contacts then after that eye surgery. I'm 5'7 and I guess I'm skinny. I weigh 125 pounds and I guess thats okay but I want to still lost a lot of weight. Like I said before I'm in 9th Grade and I go to BMS. I do sort of good in school but this year I want to do a lot better. I'm on the school's Cross Country team and I practically live to run. I'm the 1st girl right now but I don't know how long that'll last. My mile time right now is 6:43. I play the flute and piano and I'm 1st flute in my band. I have a 'boyfriend' named Neil McCarthy and we met at Eastman School of Music. If you know me, I really like him. My best friends are Meghan Mueller and Rebecca Faulconbridge. I love them like they're my sisters. FFB. O.K. Well this is the only time I'm every going to type something like this so don't get use to it. This journal is going to be mine, only mine. I could really care less on what you think of what I do during my life, what I say and what I think. Go ahead, type a comment, I'll still read it, but If you disagree on what I do in life, I can't change what I do.
-me and only me-